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MechaTank Wip :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 10 9 LineCity :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 2 Decimated Post-Apocalyptic MC model :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 7 10 GameConcept- Leg Layouts :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 2 CannonViews-Outside :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 5 2 CannonViews-Inside :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 0 GameConcept- TriHierarchy #1 :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 2 Native Lineup- Female :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 2 0 Folding Geocannon- Test Render :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 18 2 Folding Geocannon WIP :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 8 4 SketchupDump #1 :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 4 2 BirdJet :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 4 3 Ironside (Decimated) :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 6 2 Dragon Defence :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 7 7 Simple Pleasures :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 4 7 Light Engagement Mech :iconblueblankey:BlueBlankey 28 3
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Scumbag me posts journal about breaking the rut, then proceeds to make longest hiatus in 8 year history on dev OMG! 
Apparently artist's block is a long standing issue that won't ever be resolved by a single event, considering how many times I thought it would and didn't

I'm getting older, but why do I fall for and repeat the same stupid things over and over, example like abandoning something I feel responsible for?

Sifting through nostalgic old nonsense seems to confirm this; I have a serious loop problem. Not only with abandonment but with just everything in general- art, decisions, musings, observations, games, angst, excitement, depression, life happenings etc etc- I could fill in the blanks with things of the past and it would still make sense today. What does that even mean.

..Still working on -the- game (concept), still working on figuring out an effective way to make -the- animation models, still juggling the same ideas of other related tidbits and things, etc etc.

I've been predicting it being right around the corner for years, the "upward spiral"- make it happen 2017 me, don't read this later and confirm the loop..
  • Listening to: Michele McLaughlin
  • Reading: blogs of other 'in over your head' devs
  • Watching: misc. animated shorts
  • Playing: WOT (you've got to be kidding)
  • Eating: christmas candy
  • Drinking: the same tea as the last 5 years
MechaTank Wip
The front half of a multipurpose military mech with a slight cutaway. I have specific description stuffs on it but that can wait until it's finished.

The general form/ function and layout was planned ahead of time but the detail work was semi-randomly made to "make it work" -which means progress has been disproportionately slow and tedious.
I may continue this approach or try a new way to complete it, we'll see Grump 

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I've briefly arisen to herald news to those still alive to hear Braaaaains...

I've been stuck in a creative rut for over 2 years. Things have long stagnated due to not being able to form solid short-term creative goals. I have a large/long term goal in mind but keep hesitating on making semi-experimental projects that help to expose unique directions. The catalyst of the problem is 'distractions' but in reality it's a confidence issue: a distraction can be overcome when you're confident that you can control and complete it.
What has been happening is that I lack the confidence that certain distractions will ever be completed and/or controlled, so in response creative production grinds to a bare minimum- just idly and futilely attempting to keep my hands busy while I wait for the impending distraction. Even when the distraction has passed or doesn't appear, the slow and inefficient progress leaves me barely scraping on what confidence I have left, so no break-throughs are attempted. On many common occasions I scrounge up just enough to attempt something, just to be blindsided by another distraction. This leaves me in a constant fear that I won't be able to stay committed to experimental projects; so I continue to idly scrape even with no foreseeable distractions.

After over 2 years I'm fiiinally getting a 'vacation'. I've waited long enough to know that this is where the rut should stop and the long anticipated "upward spiral" should begin. With no possible distractions and a small dose of inspiration, I plan on building enough confidence to gain control. Once I make the initial break I expect the momentum to pick up until I've reached a state of "equilibrium"- a state of self sustaining confidence and production.

So I'm returning to the grave- but hold in your minds that the secret of reanimation is within my grasp Pumpkin 
Scumbag me posts journal about breaking the rut, then proceeds to make longest hiatus in 8 year history on dev OMG! 
Apparently artist's block is a long standing issue that won't ever be resolved by a single event, considering how many times I thought it would and didn't

I'm getting older, but why do I fall for and repeat the same stupid things over and over, example like abandoning something I feel responsible for?

Sifting through nostalgic old nonsense seems to confirm this; I have a serious loop problem. Not only with abandonment but with just everything in general- art, decisions, musings, observations, games, angst, excitement, depression, life happenings etc etc- I could fill in the blanks with things of the past and it would still make sense today. What does that even mean.

..Still working on -the- game (concept), still working on figuring out an effective way to make -the- animation models, still juggling the same ideas of other related tidbits and things, etc etc.

I've been predicting it being right around the corner for years, the "upward spiral"- make it happen 2017 me, don't read this later and confirm the loop..
  • Listening to: Michele McLaughlin
  • Reading: blogs of other 'in over your head' devs
  • Watching: misc. animated shorts
  • Playing: WOT (you've got to be kidding)
  • Eating: christmas candy
  • Drinking: the same tea as the last 5 years

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Eightshot Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch, really appreciate it. :)
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Toon-Risu Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Btw, your 3D arts and concepts are really imaginative. Very well done! =)
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Toon-Risu Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, do you still keep in touch with Anozke? I really miss their old RCT3 stuff. =( And their musics..... infact, I think it might've been me who introduced them to FL Studio several years ago.
Anyhow, if you can, please tell them that "Chinatown" wants to be friends again, and encourage them to send me a PM.
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection
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ShadowLinkster Featured By Owner May 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanx for Wacthing! ;P
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NOMANSNODEAD Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
thank you for the watch! :)
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DCkiq Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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LyDynasty Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! :la: :cake:
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DKoran Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2014
Happy early birthday :D
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TacoGuy12 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014
Waiting for some more projects! FOREVER WAITING 
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