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It's been around four months since I've did anything on Dev, so this is what's happening.

I stopped making art in an attempt to regain interest in what I was doing, thus hoping it would lead to higher quality art. I thought I was going too fast to stay interested. Once I stopped, it was hard to do anything at all. It felt like I had nothing to live for. Nothing got done.
I kept begging my parents to let me take online college again. They didn't trust me from the last time I quit. (I was young and stupid, rushed in, dropped in first class)
Seeing as though I was basically doing nothing useful, they finally just reluctantly let me get it set up. I'm guessing they just wanted me to do something, anything.

It's been a couple months since I got in, and I haven't been participating for the last week.
I was expecting to be surrounded by people that were knowledgeable in the class work. I really wanted to learn something I didn't know/ never thought of. Truth is, every single one of the students were completely new to the whole notion of 3d animation. The faculty generally knew what they were doing, but only in a tiny segment of the process and absolutely despised any inquiry into things they weren't familiar with. No one was dumb, but there wasn't any push for anyone to do better than what they were supposed to. All in all, the whole thing was actually a hindrance to what I wanted to do with my work. Plus it was way too expensive to muck through all the basic classes to get to the advanced ones, which may or may not be advanced at all.

Now I know that the next step to kick-starting my life is getting a commercial license for the software.
I haven't told my parents about what's going on in school yet though. This isn't going to blow over very easily, me being a repeat offender of breaking trust at this age and everything. I still have hope that I'll become a productive member of society, but these are foreboding times.

Perhaps I'll have to get a surprise job somewhere to offset the news when I break it to them. I know I can create amazing things, but I need to do something to correct this whole train wreck of a life.
(I feel a lot more disappointment in myself when I write things down and acknowledge what's happening.)


Hast the most unsavory similes
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Waiting for some more projects! FOREVER WAITING 
Cronos2218 Jan 8, 2014  Student General Artist
Have you ever considered basing a story around some of your works? or writing a story and illustrating it? Just a thought man. Hope you release something new soon!
Mecha-Zone May 15, 2013  Professional General Artist
Hi and thanks for the +WATCH :D
dragonkan Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
if i gave you the file for this [link] , would you like to use it for our collabe/trade/whatever it ends up as
Whatever you want to use is fine with me. This one would totally work- just give a general description (like how it works, what color laser it is) and I'll make a high resolution version with the file.
dragonkan Mar 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well its a high energy beam weapon, nothing fancy. got a drop box or some thing i could just save time describing it and send you the file to look at.
DevineShade Mar 5, 2013  Professional Artist
Hello fellow 3d artist. :D
Oh Hai =D
MusicOfLuie Jan 5, 2013  Student Digital Artist
All done! It's not nearly as detailed or as beautiful as what you made me... but, I hope you still like it! :heart:

BEGINNERS LUCK. Even the fish knew that. The freaking fish.
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